Doctor's offices are so frustrating!

The Urologist changed S's appointment to later in the day, even though we told them he could only do it first thing in the morning because he can't miss work. So he had to reschedule and now they can't get him in until March 5th. I am so frustrated. Who knows how long it will be until he can get an appointment for the surgery. Plus, all the labs and tests we did in January need to be within 6 months of the IVF and if we end up having to have all those redone I will be pissed.

I really would just like one thing to end up like it is supposed to with this whole mess. Some days I just want to say forget it all.

Back to the Urologist

Well, we finally heard back from the RE (they have been awful to get a hold of, I'm actually getting really irritated about that) and now S has to meet with the urologist again. He has an appointment on Monday and then hopefully we can schedule his surgery. The RE's office said they should be able to get him in for surgery by the end of Feb/beginning of March. Which means IVF won't happen until April most likely because I start my period usually the first of the month.

I just pray this works. I don't know how much more we can take.

No sperm

Devastated doesn't even begin to cover what I am feeling right now. S had an SA today because we were going to try and get some sperm to freeze for our IVF cycle since his count and motility were so low. Not too long ago I got that call that there were no sperm whatsoever in the sample.

I haven't told S yet, he's at work and I don't want him preoccupied with it so I will tell him when he gets home. He is going to be heartbroken. He has been trying so hard to improve things, he has changed his diet, had been drinking more water, has completely cut out caffeine, has been taking cool showers, has been taking vitamins. I hate that I have to tell him this news.

I just don't even understand how/why this happened? He has had two other SAs and the second one, while still extremely low, had improved from the first.

We have to wait until Monday to figure out our plan because our RE is out of town, but as far as I know the next option is surgery for S to try and extract sperm that way. I hate that he has to go through that. And I am terrified now that won't work either. We have started talking about donor sperm lately again, and S says he will be okay if that is what we have to do. I just hate that my husband might not be able to have a biological child. He is the most amazing man and I just hate this for him.

I feel so lost and hopeless right now :(

Finally have something to update!

I'm sure you all have given up on me but we are finally moving forward. I am so nervous and excited!

Last Monday we had pre-IVF labs drawn and they all came back fine. They did forget to draw my rubella so I had to have that drawn today, but the only thing that might do is make me have to get the rubella vaccine (which might push things back a few weeks or so, so hopefully I am immune!).

Today I had my SHG (sonohysterogram). It wasn't too bad, just some cramping. While we were there we were finally able to catch the woman who deals with all the insurance and have our meeting with her. We had been trying to get ahold of her for a couple weeks but due to the holidays and everything, she was unavailable. Thankfully she was able to see us today. And she gave us great news, we won't be paying out of pocket as much as I had suspected. My insurance will cover some of the ultrasounds and tests, and possibly all or most of the medications. This saves us several thousand dollars, so we couldn't be happier.

The next step is the class we have to take to learn our protocol and calendar. We have that scheduled for two weeks from now. Once we have taken the class we will be able to start our IVF cycle once my period starts. Which should be around the beginning of February.

This is really happening. We might end 2012 with a baby!