I've been thinking a lot about our IVF plans lately and I am starting to freak out. I am sure that is normal, but its just such a huge thing and I don't know how I will handle it if it doesn't work. I've been so focused on getting the money to actually do IVF that I hadn't even really thought about the possibility of it not working. But now I have been reading statistics and making myself worry. I had really been hoping that once we are able to do it that it would be a sure thing. But if it fails, I don't know what we will do. I am not sure I can handle more than one IVF. Plus, I don't want to waste all of my inheritance. I probably have enough to do 3 cycles, but I don't want to spend it all. I am so torn about the other options (donor sperm or adoption) that I don't know what we would do. I am just freaking out right now.
I also have been super emotional the past few days. I just found out one of my good friends is pregnant. I am so happy for her but I am so jealous, she got pregnant on their first try, on their honeymoon. It makes me sad that almost everyone I know who got married after me is already pregnant. Also, my coworker who was dealing with MFI who got pregnant once they gave up trying had a miscarriage. I feel so awful for her. I can't even imagine.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
Completely Unexpected...
My great grandmother passed away a couple weeks ago. She was 100 years old! She was such a great lady and will be missed.
What does this have to do with this blog? Surprisingly, a lot. My mother had always told me that I would be getting a small inheritance when my great grandma passed away. Today I had lunch with my mom and it turns out, great grandma had a lot more money set aside for all of us than we thought. Over 5 times more, which is more than I make in a year! Definitely enough to pay for IVF, even more than one if necessary, and even still have enough left for adoption if we have to go that route. I am hoping to only take out a $15,000 savings bond and keep the rest.
This also presented the perfect opportunity to tell my mom that we will be having to do IVF (S has already told his parents). I didn't tell her what exactly our diagnosis is, only that IVF is our only option. She did not seem entirely shocked at this news, I think she suspected we were having trouble since we have been trying for almost 2 years now.
I would still like to continue to lose weight before we proceed with IVF to be as healthy as possible when we do it. I think the plan will be to do it before the end of 2011. Its nice to have a goal in mind and hopefully that will help me ramp up my weight loss. I can't believe this is really going to happen this year!
What does this have to do with this blog? Surprisingly, a lot. My mother had always told me that I would be getting a small inheritance when my great grandma passed away. Today I had lunch with my mom and it turns out, great grandma had a lot more money set aside for all of us than we thought. Over 5 times more, which is more than I make in a year! Definitely enough to pay for IVF, even more than one if necessary, and even still have enough left for adoption if we have to go that route. I am hoping to only take out a $15,000 savings bond and keep the rest.
This also presented the perfect opportunity to tell my mom that we will be having to do IVF (S has already told his parents). I didn't tell her what exactly our diagnosis is, only that IVF is our only option. She did not seem entirely shocked at this news, I think she suspected we were having trouble since we have been trying for almost 2 years now.
I would still like to continue to lose weight before we proceed with IVF to be as healthy as possible when we do it. I think the plan will be to do it before the end of 2011. Its nice to have a goal in mind and hopefully that will help me ramp up my weight loss. I can't believe this is really going to happen this year!
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